8-2-1999 cruising?

Sunday was the 13th annual Dore Alley street Fair, the opening fair of the entire citywide streetfair season, and the most quasi-renegade, alternative sexual fetish-themed, edge-play or sadomasochistic, bondage and discipline-focussed street fair of them all, beating out the absolutely huge and naturally more commercially oriented Folsom street fair as yet another excuse for gay men to run around scantily clad pinching their own nipples all day, perhaps urinating on someone, getting flogged (“I swear it’s better than getting high, girl!” I overheard) and feeling very “we are living on the edge wearing leather and rubber as sexual outlaws” about themselves and their peers, or shall I say the leather/fetish/SM/BDcommunity?  It all seemed a little less “on the edge” than it should have in one respect most definitely, and that was musically.  For the second year in a row the DJ/dance area chose to ignore and not feature at least one rock and roll DJ, favoring only dance oriented gaydiscofantasyland style DJs for the ever-so-edgy crowd of fetish revelers.  I can attribute this to a very sad fact, and that is that street fair organizer David Dysart a.k.a. Puddles bowed out of some of his duties from previous years last year due to his health problems and this year he passed on just a few weeks before the fair.  One thing David always remained true to was rock and roll and diversity, presenting at least one rock and roll DJ usually early on in the fair day, acknowledging it’s presence in the south of market stomping ground where all this fetish folly supposedly takes place, and not always to the tune of that new Cher song rather than filthy dark and dirty rock and roll, which seems somehow more appropriate to the whole alternative sex/fetish scene anyway.  It was the Dore Alley Street Fair but apparently rock and roll doesn’t dress accordingly?  Tell me that Rock and Roll hasn’t changed the face of the entire south of Market nightclub and bar scene over the last five years with The Hole In The Wall Saloon and The Eagle Tavern featuring Rock and Roll only and My Place at least 50% of the time and more recently with the development of the very busy club called Sixteen every Sunday night at Cat’s Club.  I find it inaccurate and reprehensible that not a single DJ from any of these bars and clubs was invited to play at least one spot at the fair.  To be ignored was not only erroneous in the sense of the neighborhood and properly representing it, but also disrespectful to the memory of a longtime organizer of the event who gave enough of himself over the years that at least his spirit should in some respect live on in at least honoring a certain sense of tradition.   The same should apply to The Folsom Street Fair as well for that matter.  For a subculture with a rich history that’s forever threatened by an eventual heterosexist whitewashing, it shocks me just how easily gays seem willing to do that to each other, just as quick as they can.

Speaking of a sense of history, does anyone remember the real Dore Alley–that stretch of one block between Folsom and Howard, 9th and 10th with a large parking area mid block?  Several years ago after 2:00 am you could drive or stroll through that alley and find as many as 50 men lining the chain-link fence of that parking lot cruising for sex.  Now a big ugly and occasional rat is the only sign of life you’ll find scurrying about that alley at that hour.  It’s desolate, most likely due to complaints from neighbors whose homes bordered the lot.  Complaints led to heavier patrolling of the area and cruising that strip became a ritual of the past, completely forgotten or possibly stanched out in part by the epidemic as well as the authorities.  It’s difficult to remember exactly when that area became suddenly off limits or heavily patrolled but the simple fact that Ringold Alley just a half block off Folsom St, another one block stretch of highly active post bar cruising territory, existed as an alternative has a bit to do with not recalling much of a fuss about the demise of this other late night cruising spot.  You see, Ringold Alley had a huge world-renowned reputation for being the late night cruising spot in San Francisco’s South of Market district. It still does to date, because I occasionally meet perplexed visitors from out of town scratching their heads in disbelief that Ringold Alley is not really happening in the cruising department anymore, which it isn’t, and I’m starting to understand the reasons why.  It must have happened very slowly so as not to cause an uproar with the nocturnal meandering sexually obsessed gay men who frequent the alley to cruise.  There was no initial shockwave noted in the local gay rags about any police crackdown on late night cruising on Ringold but sure enough, the number of men cruising the alley seriously started to diminish.

One night about 6 weeks ago, a Friday at 2:00 am I was heading down 9th Street to the 24 hour shell station with a friend and my friend suddenly stopped in his tracks and said, “There’s a cop car right up ahead, lets wait or cross the street.”  I looked at him incredulously, as he was not your run of the mill drug-addled ex-con paranoiac and had never been in a Mexican prison either.  “Are you serious?  What could a cop do to us—we’re just walking to the shell station, they’re here to protect us, c’mon, we’re marching right by them proudly,” and we did, I even greeted the officers in my best butt-kissing little boy voice.  It was after we passed them that I realized that the cop car was parked in a way that blocked any traffic from entering the mouth of Ringold alley completely—cutting off the circular pattern traveled by vehicles for years around that half block.  I was astonished at this bold motion against this regular activity on the block for at least two decades and wondered why it was happening.  Were there noise complaints from residents of the alley?  Gee, didn’t they know about the cruising before they moved in, did a tricky slumlord just fail to mention it to a nice elderly couple?  How many new and oblivious residents are there on Ringold Alley?  When I moved into the South of Market area directly above a popular bar, I didn’t phone in complaints about the noise, I accepted it as something like the weather, a quality inherent to the area.  If you hate cold climates, don’t move to Minnesota.  If you want a tree-lined family-style lawn darts with the neighbors, peaceful after dusk kind of neighborhood, don’t move into an alley known for decades as an institution of late night cruising for sex.

Just the other night a friend of mine left my house just for a breath of fresh air and as he turned down the alley he noticed a cop car.  He strolled towards it and the officer inside said, “Excuse me sir, could you come over to the car please—and remove your hands from your pockets.”  My friend quipped back, “Paranoid?”  He sensed the police were not amused and said, “Yes sir,” and approached the car.  The police said, “The residents of the area have been complaining about the noise—you’re going to have to leave the area.”   He then told them he was sort of a resident of the area—just over on Folsom and how nice it is to take a walk at night like he was doing.  They replied that a few of the guys gather in groups and get loud, but it is nice to be able to walk at night.”  They weren’t entirely unpleasant, but pretty adamant about keeping the alley clear of people.  Perhaps they wanted the cruising strip all to themselves, which would be fine by me if they were the pair of heroes in blue who came to my female room mate’s rescue over a disturbance outside of our front gate one night.  They were so fine she tried to think of a way to get them inside!  There have even been reports of non-uniform or undercover cops patrolling the alley and telling people to leave.

This sudden backlash against cruising areas has made itself apparent in a variety of formerly hot spots to mill about in the dark or in nature for sex.  A friend told me recently that the Windmills were completely abysmal these days and a recent trek to Buena Vista Park proved even more uneventful with the clearcutting notion that less foliage will stop men from having sex in the bushes has been exercised to such an extreme that it makes my inner sierra club member cry out in pain.  On the snootier side of town, Lafayette park still poses too much of a danger of being arrested by undercover cops and branded for life as a sexual offender.  It appears that Collingwood park in the Castro is the only cruise spot that is still bustling but I’m sure that’s soon to be eradicated as well, seeing as how several popular gay bars in the Castro have closed and the former Gay Mecca is truly seeming like a neighborhood with a plan if you know what I mean.

So what in the hell is going on here folks?  Call me paranoid but I think San Francisco is trying to tell us something, like “Goodbye Homosexuals, goodbye Poor people, we don’t want you and your tawdry ways anymore, except maybe once or twice a year when your money is what we want, like Gay Day, Folsom and Castro Street Fairs, oh, and Christmas too.”  HIV care and disease management has turned Gay Males into the welfare mothers of the millennium.  Landlords city-wide are commiserating amongst themselves over how difficult it can be to evict a P.W.A.   Well, I say it’s time we start taking back some of our old haunts and habitues on the alley, street and park levels as if the internet never existed for cruising for sex.  The old-world ways could likely prove more fruitful than the obtuse and removed attempts in cyber-world if you ask me.  So the next time you’re feeling lonely late at night think of the good old days and act accordingly.  Just because they’ve co-opted our alternative sexual adventurousness into a safe one night a week Fetish focus field trip doesn’t mean our behaviors, traditions and rituals are but a closed chapter in anthropological history.  Go outside and get your nut, people.

 

8-17-1999 strange days

One night recently I borrowed a couple videos from my friend George Crawford (who always says I write about him but fail to mention him by name so there you go George).  One was an art film called Biker Pigs from Hell and the other was a major motion picture futuristic thriller called Strange Days.  The art film came complete with a plot, varietal tattooed muscular violence-prone even knife-wielding tops and their skinnier shave-headed or mohawked stoner bottoms-looking like that one who rode bitch with the villain in Road Warrior who got killed by a metal boomerang hitting his head, only a bit more butch than that.  One punk stole the wallet and Harley of the main tattooed biker on the most steroids and with a frightening Samson-like mid-length bob.  On his search for his bike he encounters a great deal of apathy from his biker friends when he asks them to help find his motorcycle and kick ass on the punk who stole it.  With a cinematic rage one can only find demonstrated in art films like this one, he storms off to find it himself, leaving his friends behind to have sex in the bed of a pickup truck and take it to the ugly sofa in the garage for an inspired double-fuck on one of the bottoms.  He may have dogged his biker brother earlier, but he proved himself at least a good sport in this scene.  The protagonist continues his search, nearly interrupting a how-many-latex-things-can-I-put-in-your-butt scene, huffing and growling about his stolen bike, narrowly misses an abduction at knife point forced sexual encounter involving the thief, and after a shower in the outdoors(?), finally locates the culprit and teaches him a lesson that one would hardly consider punishment.  It was the kind of film a viewer would enjoy seeing time and time again, good no-hidden-meaning entertainment.

Strange Days was quite different from the art film.  It had a lot of real highlights, like seeing Angela Bassett kicking major ass frequently, a time frame set in the future which is always kind of fun, especially when it’s the not so distant future, the plot dealt with a high-tech black market virtual reality sort of thing that was treated like a new drug experience which of course I’ll always greet with enthusiasm, it featured a glorious performance by one of my fave actresses Juliette Lewis as a rock star who was slutty as all get out and performed the PJ Harvey song, “Rid Of Me”, and it featured the music of and an appearance by one of my favorite bands these days Skunk Anansie.  The films story culminates on New Years Eve 1999, the dreaded move into the year 2000 in what seems to be Times Square and the band playing is Skunk Anansie but you only get a tiny glimpse or two of them.  What was remarkable about this film was how it finally prompted me to consider the turn of the century, new year’s eve 1999, which is rapidly approaching.  The main word and worry for most is the cryptic Y2K catastrophe, looming mysteriously over our heads like a giant question mark.  Will it be overwhelming?  Will it be underwhelming?  Will we need a bomb shelter or bunker stuffed with necessities or will everyone’s ATM machines be down for one day like around Christmas then business as usual on the next day?    Who knows, or at this point cares anymore?  I think I’ll trust all of the authorities and regulatory committees and task force councils to have the Y2K crisis adequately under control with the millions of dollars spent in preparation for it by the time that clock strikes 12.  Yet after seeing this fictionalized account of that big new years moment, I developed a whole new set of fears that eclipse all else, playing through my head like psychic visions.  Thinking about it really frightened me to the core.  I quickly consulted my checkbook calendar and ascertained that the blessed eve falls on a Friday night, a scheduled worknight for me.   In the past working on new years eve would be my preference, a hot energetic shift promising to be busy with revelers bent on having a good time-what could be better?  I’d be planning a special set of sorts, reflecting upon all the music of the year, choosing one special song for the stroke of midnight, etc.  But watching this cinematic depiction of that future moment got my mind reeling with other thoughts regarding this auspicious moment when humanity reaches the year 2000.  It scares me.  In the movie the scene wasn’t depicted as out of control or total chaotic anarchy, the police seemed to have it all ultimately under control, so this film wasn’t what prompted my thoughts and visions of looted stores and burning automobiles and violent gang rapes and children trampled to death and minorities ganging up against the police and more cars on fire-police cars to be exact-and car-jackings left and right.  In short, it could be like the Rodney King riots, which Strange Days drew more than a vague parallel to in its plot.   I don’t know why I feel this way, perhaps it’s because I’ve always kind of disliked New Years Eve and found it to be like Amateur Night in the party department, a powder keg of testosterone and emotional alcohol impairment or perhaps it’s because I’ve seen what happens when a major metropolitan city’s pro football team wins the superbowl or perhaps it’s because the masses of America are just so base and retarded and weaned on steady diets of talk-show fisticuffs and exploitation of the unusual for open ridicule that violence is a desirable act in a party evening.  Maybe there are a few other reasons in the news lately that might slightly foreshadow the coming mayhem, things like all the high school shootings, all the people killing their own children, all the Yosemite tragedies, all the hate crimes against women and Jewish pre-schoolers getting picked off like ducks in a shooting gallery, the third generation Woodstock music festival ending in destruction and fires and rioting and several reports of gang rapes in the mosh pits to the strains of yet more Afro-American rip-off white-boy rap/metal million sellers Limp Bizkit, war crimes and mass graves in Bosnia, dead Kennedys everywhere, heat wave related deaths by the refrigerated truckload,   airplane accidents, etc.   All of these elements seem to signal to me that things quite possibly aren’t gonna be all about the ball dropping in Times Square and Guy Lombardo and his orchestra, nor will they be all harmonic convergence and New Age-y beautiful for all you consciousness-forward age of Aquarius type optimists.  I sense gigantic tensions building that people seem to be ignoring or not anticipating.

Just on a local front alone right here in my own little neighborhood where I work and live and where the SF nightclub scene was once said to flourish, tensions are already rising in a conflict between the city, property owners, the police and the proprietors of some of the most popular nightclub institutions and a number of smaller bars and taverns.    There appears to be a concerted effort to shut down two of the largest Soma nightclubs, 1015 Folsom and (gasp) The End-up, the noise ordinance conflict with developers and residents of work/live spaces continues to rage on, the smaller bars are regularly persecuted due to the no-smoking ordinance and a variety of infractions suddenly being sited by the ABC, and as I mentioned in my last column, cruising the alleys for sex has become the easiest way to meet a different kind of man in uniform than ever.  Since that column came out I’ve talked to four friends who were stopped by the police for walking down or even riding a bike down Ringold Alley at night, most of them residents of the area.

All of these thoughts really got my mind racing about New Years Eve and what may come to be on that night.  It depressed me and scared me to a point where I had to do something to try to forget it.  It also made me remember something my mother used to tell me whenever I wanted to see a scary movie at the theater.  “No, it will only give you nightmares,” to which I’d respond, “It’s only a movie.”  Funny how those things can still ring true some thirty years later.  I put on my coat and headed for the place where I often go when I need to shake a bad mood-the record store.  Time to shop for some new music for the millennium, or is that new music for the revolution?  At any rate, by odd coincidence, Skunk Anansie’s new album Post Orgasmic Chill was the first thing I picked up.  Strange days indeed!

6-24-`1999

As you may have noticed, I took a break from Beat This in the last issue of Bay Times.  I just basically needed a respite from the process of deciding what to write about, attending this event or that, chain-smoking in the eerie glow of the computer monitor late at night and meeting deadline near sun up with a stiff neck.  Taking this brief vacation did me a world of good but I’d like to dispel a few rumors regarding my sudden absence from these pages.  A roving group of irate muscle queens did not attack me in a self-induced roid rage and break my fingers so I couldn’t type, I did not finally suffer a highly anticipated drug overdose nor did my loved ones instigate an aggressive intervention, it wasn’t my turn to be Nan Parks, and I wasn’t bound with Rainbow colored restraints and thrown in some parade committee members basement in an attempt to squelch my annual vitriolic Gay Pride Day assessment and try to ruin the festivities and feelings of unification for the less jaded queer percentile of the entire rainbow colored money economic entity.  I suffered none of these situations at all, at least not yet, but I did do something I haven’t been doing nearly enough.    I’ve gone from seeing almost no live music to jumping right back into it with a vengeance.

It all started a couple of Saturdays ago at of all places upstairs at Kimo’s the mostly glass gay bar on Polk Street, and coincidentally the first gay bar I ever laid eyes on in my life when I was about 15 and my vacationing family unwittingly ended up strolling on Polk Street after a sandwich at Tommy’s Joint.  People inside Kimo’s wore short shorts with cowboy boots and belts that wrapped around twice and black Chinese slippers and scarves and bracelets and hankies in pockets and leather jackets and caps.  I figured they must be the people who read the books with titles like Young Buttfull, Mouth For Dick and The Midget’s Giant, that were displayed in the window of the bookstore we just passed.  It was all very exotic, and actually all these years later, the idea of rock bands playing the tiny stage upstairs where usually only drag acts are featured seemed quite exotic as well.  I climbed the narrow steps of Kimo’s in time to catch a fun band called Tourettz La Trec doing a great job of covering the Pink Floyd song “Lucifer Sam.”  They were immediately engaging and likeable, the basic bass, drum, guitar outfit with the addition of a fine keyboardist adding flourishes of driven pop-ish influences to swirling psychedelia, not to mention handling the vocals.  I love bands featuring keyboards, which many more bands seem to be doing theses days.

Next up was Clone, a band I’ve been very anxious to see as they’ve come highly recommended by a few people whose opinions I trust.  Plus they have a very imaginative and mysterious website/legend of their origin that reads like a goth-damaged para-normal sci-fi comic adventure, even veering slightly towards the realm of concept album or rock opera alter-egos, band members with whacked out names, three of the five members are blonde, synthesizer and vocal effects figuring prominently and songs that bear merely a number as a title on their debut lp, which is called Not Feeling Quite Yourself Today?  

They took the stage and tried their best to correct some technical sound problems inherent to such a small place with limited equipment resources and eventually got underway.  One member of Clone, the bassist is formerly of the well-known female rockers 7-Year Bitch and her formidable ability on bass creates the pulsing spine of a very fresh and intricate sound.  The rather mellow and unassuming looking guitarist played some seriously aggressive and terse licks, sharp and flying like shards of glass yet bound by intricate interplay with the bass.  Add this to a really great drummer plus some recorded rhythms from the keyboard and lots of added textures and sounds via synthesizer and you’ve got this sort of nasty dark and dramatic mutated disco, and the blonde female vocalist, wearing dark hornrimmed glasses and one of those long silk Chinese dresses was the mistress of ceremonies.  She stood there calmly until the vocal part came in and suddenly was transformed into a wild-eyed host of seemingly multiple personalities, speaking, singing, howling, and growling her way through song after song, employing a vocal effect contraption when mysterious feedback problems would allow.  You could tell inspite of this casual and intimate venue that this charismatic frontperson had a real flair for dramatics and completed the overall package of a very engaging and unique outfit.  I say watch out for this band, something very good is going on here.  I bought Clone’s somewhat hard to find (most record stores sold out of the disc quite rapidly) debut CD on the way out, winking at the Tranny cocktail waitress with a heart of gold.  I hope Kimo’s hosts more events like this one in the future.

The next show I caught was the following Wednesday at Bimbo’s, the long awaited appearance of Thee Headcoatees, the female counter-group associated with the DIY indie-rock model band Thee Headcoats.  Having been around for at least 15 years by now, putting out record after record on their own label on their own terms, this British trio have always enjoyed a loyal cult following of their spirited and basic approach to rock and roll with a punk-rock and 60’s retro pop aesthetic.  On that night Thee Headcoats opened and Thee Headcoatees were to headline.  They are three girls, Holly, Ludella, and Kyra, at one time said to be the girlfriends of the Thee Headcoats, and they put out records with Thee Headcoats playing the instruments and the girls singing under the name Thee Headcoatees.  One of their more well-known songs is the hilariously raunchy single, “Come Into My Mouth,” a gem of a song that I’ve introduced to a number of drag queens who have appropriately lip-synced it in gloriously filthy performances.  I was very excited to be seeing them finally because they rarely ever play the states.

After probably one of the best sets I’ve ever seen by Thee Headcoats there was a brief break and they returned to the stage with the three girls up front.  I was struck by what remarkable beauties they were, dressed very simply, not overly made up, just stunning and very British.  They broke into their first number with Kyra singing lead, a song called “Wildman” and the lovely freckled blonde with the big smile and slightly upturned nose went rigid and stiff and bounce-y, eyes widening with every word as she attacked the microphone, looking punk as hell but sounding proper and harmonizing with the other girls singing back-up—until she let loose with a magnificent scream characteristic of many of their LPs great moments, exploding with movement, punks rage rolled into one brief moment.   Then the song glides to its finish and the girls rotate, the next taking the lead, in this case Holly Golightly, the Headcoatee who has done the most solo work of the three.  It’s actually kind of shocking to see just how many solo records she has put out, about 5 or 6, all bearing that simplistic edgy guitar driven punk rock thing with a definite hit of early sixties retro influence, and usually a very clever cover tune, something old and good like an Ike and Tina Turner song or something by Pretty Things or The Undertones or The Sonics, which speak of the devil, Thee Headcoatees went into a great version of “Have Love, Will Travel” and the crowd went wild.  Which brings us to a certain point that isn’t so pleasant, and forgive my generalization but I’ve really grown to dislike the predominantly heterosexual, beer swilling retro buffoons and their mod little girlfriends who dress like they’re Lulu’s best friend in some early sixties british teen musical comedy, who come out in force every time Thee Headcoats play Bimbo’s.  People who always like to pretend they live in a different era than present have always really scared me for some reason, which explains my disdain for the whole swing band sensation, but when they dress like that and start feigning English accents as they order their stupid dark ales and get more “pissed” and act like a bunch ill-mannered yahoos having a moment because they seem to deserve one more than the rest of the crowd because of the way they’re dressed, it just really makes me roll my eyes.  We were taking in a show that for all practical purposes was enchanting and fun and essentially we left it because we couldn’t stand the people around us any longer.  I purchased the latest Headcoatees LP Cessation! on the way out as consolation and we wondered aloud in the cab on the way home if they did “Come Into My Mouth” and the cabby must have too, asking, “Now what kind of show was playing there?”

The next show I took in was a triple bill at Bottom of the Hill featuring Skunk Anansie, Black Kali Ma, and Fabulous Disaster, a rarity in that seldom is there a multi-band bill where I want to see all of the bands.  The first of them Fabulous Disaster is a four-piece outfit featuring my friend Nancy Kravitz on bass, a name synonymous with female rock n roll for over a decade in these parts, not to mention her hands-on essential involvement with the Folsom Street Fairs main music stages, and a formidable list of former bands she’s played in, the girl is rock and roll personified, if credit is given where credit is due.  This was my first time seeing her latest band and by far Fabulous Disaster is the best band she’s plucked the bass for yet.  They were astonishing all the way around, one of the fastest, tightest, harmonizing, all-girl punk rock things I’ve seen.   Down the line, it was like this, the drummer kicks serious ass in a punk rock fashion, beating the fuck out of the drum kit, Nancy just gets better and better all the time on bass, the guitarist (who coincidentally is married to the guitarist in Clone) is damn good and very studied yet her technical adeptness seems effortless, like she really has fun playing and adding the amazing harmonies and back and forth vocal interplay with the vocalist, who can sing really really fast as well as clearly, all the while commanding the stage like a frontperson while fully being connected with the band.  Watching their tough and tight set, I began to wonder why certain less talented bands get signed or get more exposure than some who are more deserving in my opinion.  Fabulous Disaster is a band definitely due for a big break of some kind, and they have had some very good shows and subsequent press from appearances in L.A.  Look for them and catch a set, you’ll know what I mean.

Black Kali Ma did a fine set, satisfying a quickly growing crowd as the night went on, but at a point during their set my ears began giving me serious warning signs that I had better retreat to a quieter place in the club or I may never be the same.  They apparently went over very well but I spent most of their set outside on the smoking patio discussing the finer points of ear protection with Nancy and running into many cool people I haven’t seen in ages.

While waiting for Skunk Anansie to take the stage the club got very crowded and we were pushed up against the kitchen window side stage when I spotted a celebrity right in front of me and gulped, it was Joan Jett!  The crush of the capacity crowd was making it almost impossible to move anywhere in the place so Nancy, who works there also, quickly ushered Joan and her friends into the kitchen just behind us for their personal comfort.  Joan Jett was in town because she and her band were playing the San Jose Gay Day.  My friend turned to her and asked, “What will it take to get you to play our gay day up here?” to which Joan responded with a slight smirk, “Money.”  She looked truly great with short blonde hair, and I was surprised how petite she is.

When Skunk Anansie hit stage, they eclipsed all, and from beginning to end were powerful almost beyond description.  This is one fucking phenomenal band who have been more than ready to finally break big here in the states, and after a show like that, it’s inevitable.  I just kept saying, “oh my god,” my mouth dropping open song by song as Skin, the bald black female vocalist bounded and sprang about the stage like a caged panther, aggressive, seductive, flirtatious total Godhead.  They careened through some crunching monster metal with more brains and politics than hair and guitar=penis posturing, and the crowd went wild with an explosion of movement to match that of the players onstage.  I just soaked it all in and couldn’t help thinking that age old Rock Critic thing that Dave Marsh said years ago about Bruce Springsteen, not his exact words but the basic sentiment, “This is the future.”  Here is this band mixing an amalgam of styles, weaving in and out of expectations based upon gender and race and status quo and there is no denying how truly forward and ahead of the rest they are.  Skin had this crowd in the palm of her hand, guiding them from intellectual political headbangers to acoustic only softness exhibiting a vocal ability that encompassed such an awe-inspiring range I was spellbound.  At times it seemed that she must have had even operatic training at some point, yet she seems so very young!  Her talent seems adequately matched by the members of her band, magnificent but never above and beyond their cohesion as a unit.  This was most definitely the best show I’ve seen all year, so great it’s difficult to find the right words to describe it.  I couldn’t help but notice that Joan Jett was equally enthralled, having been coaxed out of the safety of the kitchen for a better vantage point.  Look for Skunk Anansie’s third LP Post Orgasmic Chill out soon on Virgin Records as well as their first two LPs, Sunburnt and Paranoid and Stoosh.  Essential listening, and don’t miss the chance to see them live ever!

Finally I would like to dedicate this column to the memory of a great man who passed on last Sunday, David Dysart or Puddles as he was known to many of his friends.  A fixture for years in the South of Market Community and a DJ at many haunts in the neighborhood, David is largely responsible for handling and developing some of the finer elements or features of The Folsom Street Fair that have made it one of the largest public events held annually in California.  If it weren’t for him I’d have never been given the chance to ever DJ at an outdoor street fair event, and Rock and Roll wouldn’t have reared it’s head so consistently from the stages at Folsom Street Fair.  His achievements are clear and noted and his friendship and presence will be greatly missed.  Throw one back at your favorite Soma haunt for Puddles, forever alive in our memories.

7-4-1999 stacey and fiver

About two weeks ago a tragic event took the lives of two colorful vibrant and very loved individuals and put in extreme peril the life of another and I’m sure many of you were made aware of this tragedy by the evening news and stories in the daily papers.    A number of cases of people contracting a deadly flesh-eating bacteria usually through intravenous heroin use were reported in San Francisco, the frightening condition claiming two lives and leaving three others in critical condition, rushed in and out of surgery in attempts to stop the rapidly moving bacteria in the only way possible, by surgically removing the afflicted tissue completely.  This horrible tragedy was reported on with an almost sensationalistic, dramatic and grisly manner and in my opinion with out near enough precautionary emphasis at first geared towards other IV drug users whose habits could be putting their lives in peril.  While specialists were being flown in from the Center for Disease Control in Atlanta and holding press conferences, it is my understanding that merely a concerned individual close to the victims was responsible for informing the needle exchange program of this life-threatening situation at hand first.  Eventually the media’s coverage began to also include more pointed warnings of danger to current IV drug-users, symptoms to look out for and procedures for those who feared possible infection and thankfully the needle exchange program immediately posted and distributed proper warnings and information regarding the danger, and I believe this news and the deaths have hit many users close enough to home for them to make the decision to change their ways.   The death of someone close to you is a terrible wake-up call or catalyst for change, especially when the media so far offered up merely their names followed by a comma and two words, those words being drug addict.  The friends, companions and co-workers of the two deceased girls, a group of supportive individuals who’ve functioned as a make-shift family in the face of possible estrangement from actual blood relations experienced by many gays, remember Anastasia Michelle Quijas, aka Stacey and Katherine Louise Rian, aka Fiver as far more than just that.

I wasn’t as familiar with Fiver, who was the first to go, but as I understand it she was 33 years old and born in Newark, Ohio and had lived in San Francisco for the last 13 years.  She was a writer and musician of note and inspiration to many and a well liked employee of the world-famous End-Up.  Even admittedly her friends and those close to her say she was someone who defied description, a free spirit whose acceptance of others was always with a great deal of joy and humor and sweetness of heart.  Even now her spirit still shines in the memories of those close to her, perhaps at last free as it always desired.

I knew Stacey Quijas for many years, our association dating way back to I believe the hey day of Female Trouble the groundbreaking club originated by Nancy Kravitz and DJ Stephanie Phillips at the old Nightbreak space in the upper Haight.  A one night a week club featuring live female rock bands only (except for an occasional male band forced to perform in drag!), Female Trouble played host to a growing remarkable dyke punk rock scene that spawned such acts as 4 non-Blondes and Tribe 8 and in many respects was the first of it’s kind of alternative to the mainstream sub-culturally identified nightclubs that sprang up out of a definite need for a venue where this new growing movement could comfortably call home.  I attended the club frequently, often as the only male present and this could often cause minor degrees of tension, which is where Stacey comes in.  Having met Stacey here and there over the years at rock events that weren’t always all female, she would always greet me with a smile or hug or high-five and immediately it was noted by others around us that inspite of my being male, I must be okay because Stacey liked me, and if anyone was rude to me about my, shall we say vaginal-impairment, Stacey and a few others would set them straight, and I always had the feeling that were it necessary they would even go as far as kick some ass on my behalf.  Having friends like that made me feel safe, privileged and basically like a million bucks.

She was always a vision of anarchist punk-rock aestheticism, with her leather jacket hung heavy with chains and banners and scarves, tattoos everywhere, a Mohawk haircut that eventually evolved to dreads with a backwards baseball cap, heavy black boots, fingerless gloves and an exemplary attitude that made her without a doubt a perfect dyke punk rock icon.  It’s no wonder that her tattooed calves, a skeletal hand on each, one in the shape of an “L” and the other a shape of a “7” graced the cover of L7’s first LP, a huge honor considering that L7 are indeed one of the greatest and most popular all-female hard rocking bands ever, and just recently I heard that Janice the exceptional bassist from our very own bad ass girl rocker outfit Stone Fox is soon to be joining up with L7 for a stint of touring.  Funny, that reminds me of a show many years ago, Stone Fox’s first record release party and I was right up in front with the hardcore fans, Stacey included and the dancing got very wild and quite by accident, Stacey’s fingerless gloved hand ended up flying into my face and I swear she nearly took my eye out.  I stopped and covered my face, truly frightened for my future of continued 20/20 vision, thoughts of Sandy Duncan and Peter Falk and

Sammy Davis Jr. floating through my mind and Stacey pulled me aside and yanked my hands from my

face and gave me the once over, and said, “You’re okay, c’mon,” and yanked me back into the heat of the motion up front to finish enjoying the show, leaving me with a totally butch-looking black eye the next day that I wore proudly and even captured a date with who was drawn to that new-found rugged look.   Stacey’s rugged look also landed her appearances in videos by The Melvins and L7 and she also appeared on the cover of a Tribe 8 record, not to mention lending her able-bodied abilities to set up and breakdown of many bands she’s been roadie for including Bikini Kill.  The last time I saw Stacey was at her final place of employment, the End-up, where I hadn’t been seen in quite some time and was pleasantly surprised to find her effervescent smile lighting up the darkest sort of morning bar crawl.

Although the news of Stacey’s death has come to me over two weeks ago, I hadn’t realized how I truly hadn’t reckoned with it personally, and how all these memories are now coming to me and how profoundly sad and tragic it is that this young and vibrant person is no longer with us.  This is the hardest sort of writing I’ve ever had to do and lord knows it isn’t the first time.  One of the only comforts in writing about this is the simple fact that it may help others in dealing with the loss.  I’ve found that the only way to help yourself is to help others who are struggling with the same thing.  All of our memories are the only place where those who have died remain forever alive, there and in our imagination if you will, and those are two things that no one can really ever take away from us.  It is there where we need to cultivate and continue the lives of our friends, think to yourself, “What would they say if they were here?” and then say it, wear or carry things they once gave you or once belonged to them, do what they would do in a given situation, and never ever forget them.  It’s all we can do, and we shall do so with honor, proud of our friends and the lives they led, knowledgeable of our duties from this point on.

At press time a third victim of this horrible bacteria who is definitely a part of the same family of friends and an outstanding guitarist and individual, Cara Crash is hospitalized and still in very serious condition but is a strong girl, well-loved, and courageous and our thoughts and strength of love go out to her.  We need you Cara.

One individual who has been there in every way since the beginning of this tragic situation, dealing with the many harrowing details and hospital visits and dealing with the shocked families and the gathering of personal effects and the many things that come about with an untimely death, a co-worker to all three girls Linnea LaSpinosa or LB as she is affectionately known, has been nothing short of a Saint in handling a great deal of the fall out of this tragedy.  Her strength goes well beyond what any of us could begin to imagine and we are lucky to have such a caring and courageous person in our midst.  A call to the Vatican for beatification is in order and that new Saint for reasons that involve far too long of a story to tell here shall be called Saint Jones.  You are our rock, LB.

In the near future look for some benefit and tribute fundraising concerts with a few of the girls favorite bands.  Indeed, two words were not enough.

 

 

About two weeks ago a tragic event took the lives of two colorful vibrant and very loved individuals and put in extreme peril the life of another and I’m sure many of you were made aware of this tragedy by the evening news and stories in the daily papers.    A number of cases of people contracting a deadly flesh-eating bacteria usually through intravenous heroin use were reported in San Francisco, the frightening condition claiming two lives and leaving three others in critical condition, rushed in and out of surgery in attempts to stop the rapidly moving bacteria in the only way possible, by surgically removing the afflicted tissue completely.  This horrible tragedy was reported on with an almost sensationalistic, dramatic and grisly manner and in my opinion with out near enough precautionary emphasis at first geared towards other IV drug users whose habits could be putting their lives in peril.  While specialists were being flown in from the Center for Disease Control in Atlanta and holding press conferences, it is my understanding that merely a concerned individual close to the victims was responsible for informing the needle exchange program of this life-threatening situation at hand first.  Eventually the media’s coverage began to also include more pointed warnings of danger to current IV drug-users, symptoms to look out for and procedures for those who feared possible infection and thankfully the needle exchange program immediately posted and distributed proper warnings and information regarding the danger, and I believe this news and the deaths have hit many users close enough to home for them to make the decision to change their ways.   The death of someone close to you is a terrible wake-up call or catalyst for change, especially when the media so far offered up merely their names followed by a comma and two words, those words being drug addict.  The friends, companions and co-workers of the two deceased girls, a group of supportive individuals who’ve functioned as a make-shift family in the face of possible estrangement from actual blood relations experienced by many gays, remember Anastasia Michelle Quijas, aka Stacey and Katherine Louise Rian, aka Fiver as far more than just that.

I wasn’t as familiar with Fiver, who was the first to go, but as I understand it she was 33 years old and born in Newark, Ohio and had lived in San Francisco for the last 13 years.  She was a writer and musician of note and inspiration to many and a well liked employee of the world-famous End-Up.  Even admittedly her friends and those close to her say she was someone who defied description, a free spirit whose acceptance of others was always with a great deal of joy and humor and sweetness of heart.  Even now her spirit still shines in the memories of those close to her, perhaps at last free as it always desired.

I knew Stacey Quijas for many years, our association dating way back to I believe the hey day of Female Trouble the groundbreaking club originated by Nancy Kravitz and DJ Stephanie Phillips at the old Nightbreak space in the upper Haight.  A one night a week club featuring live female rock bands only (except for an occasional male band forced to perform in drag!), Female Trouble played host to a growing remarkable dyke punk rock scene that spawned such acts as 4 non-Blondes and Tribe 8 and in many respects was the first of it’s kind of alternative to the mainstream sub-culturally identified nightclubs that sprang up out of a definite need for a venue where this new growing movement could comfortably call home.  I attended the club frequently, often as the only male present and this could often cause minor degrees of tension, which is where Stacey comes in.  Having met Stacey here and there over the years at rock events that weren’t always all female, she would always greet me with a smile or hug or high-five and immediately it was noted by others around us that inspite of my being male, I must be okay because Stacey liked me, and if anyone was rude to me about my, shall we say vaginal-impairment, Stacey and a few others would set them straight, and I always had the feeling that were it necessary they would even go as far as kick some ass on my behalf.  Having friends like that made me feel safe, privileged and basically like a million bucks.

She was always a vision of anarchist punk-rock aestheticism, with her leather jacket hung heavy with chains and banners and scarves, tattoos everywhere, a Mohawk haircut that eventually evolved to dreads with a backwards baseball cap, heavy black boots, fingerless gloves and an exemplary attitude that made her without a doubt a perfect dyke punk rock icon.  It’s no wonder that her tattooed calves, a skeletal hand on each, one in the shape of an “L” and the other a shape of a “7” graced the cover of L7’s first LP, a huge honor considering that L7 are indeed one of the greatest and most popular all-female hard rocking bands ever, and just recently I heard that Janice the exceptional bassist from our very own bad ass girl rocker outfit Stone Fox is soon to be joining up with L7 for a stint of touring.  Funny, that reminds me of a show many years ago, Stone Fox’s first record release party and I was right up in front with the hardcore fans, Stacey included and the dancing got very wild and quite by accident, Stacey’s fingerless gloved hand ended up flying into my face and I swear she nearly took my eye out.  I stopped and covered my face, truly frightened for my future of continued 20/20 vision, thoughts of Sandy Duncan and Peter Falk and

Sammy Davis Jr. floating through my mind and Stacey pulled me aside and yanked my hands from my

face and gave me the once over, and said, “You’re okay, c’mon,” and yanked me back into the heat of the motion up front to finish enjoying the show, leaving me with a totally butch-looking black eye the next day that I wore proudly and even captured a date with who was drawn to that new-found rugged look.   Stacey’s rugged look also landed her appearances in videos by The Melvins and L7 and she also appeared on the cover of a Tribe 8 record, not to mention lending her able-bodied abilities to set up and breakdown of many bands she’s been roadie for including Bikini Kill.  The last time I saw Stacey was at her final place of employment, the End-up, where I hadn’t been seen in quite some time and was pleasantly surprised to find her effervescent smile lighting up the darkest sort of morning bar crawl.

Although the news of Stacey’s death has come to me over two weeks ago, I hadn’t realized how I truly hadn’t reckoned with it personally, and how all these memories are now coming to me and how profoundly sad and tragic it is that this young and vibrant person is no longer with us.  This is the hardest sort of writing I’ve ever had to do and lord knows it isn’t the first time.  One of the only comforts in writing about this is the simple fact that it may help others in dealing with the loss.  I’ve found that the only way to help yourself is to help others who are struggling with the same thing.  All of our memories are the only place where those who have died remain forever alive, there and in our imagination if you will, and those are two things that no one can really ever take away from us.  It is there where we need to cultivate and continue the lives of our friends, think to yourself, “What would they say if they were here?” and then say it, wear or carry things they once gave you or once belonged to them, do what they would do in a given situation, and never ever forget them.  It’s all we can do, and we shall do so with honor, proud of our friends and the lives they led, knowledgeable of our duties from this point on.

At press time a third victim of this horrible bacteria who is definitely a part of the same family of friends and an outstanding guitarist and individual, Cara Crash is hospitalized and still in very serious condition but is a strong girl, well-loved, and courageous and our thoughts and strength of love go out to her.  We need you Cara.

One individual who has been there in every way since the beginning of this tragic situation, dealing with the many harrowing details and hospital visits and dealing with the shocked families and the gathering of personal effects and the many things that come about with an untimely death, a co-worker to all three girls Linnea LaSpinosa or LB as she is affectionately known, has been nothing short of a Saint in handling a great deal of the fall out of this tragedy.  Her strength goes well beyond what any of us could begin to imagine and we are lucky to have such a caring and courageous person in our midst.  A call to the Vatican for beatification is in order and that new Saint for reasons that involve far too long of a story to tell here shall be called Saint Jones.  You are our rock, LB.

In the near future look for some benefit and tribute fundraising concerts with a few of the girls favorite bands.  Indeed, two words were not enough.

 

 

7-4-1999

About two weeks ago a tragic event took the lives of two colorful vibrant and very loved individuals and put in extreme peril the life of another and I’m sure many of you were made aware of this tragedy by the evening news and stories in the daily papers. A number of cases of people contracting a deadly flesh-eating bacteria usually through intravenous heroin use were reported in San Francisco, the frightening condition claiming two lives and leaving three others in critical condition, rushed in and out of surgery in attempts to stop the rapidly moving bacteria in the only way possible, by surgically removing the afflicted tissue completely. This horrible tragedy was reported on with an almost sensationalistic, dramatic and grisly manner and in my opinion with out near enough precautionary emphasis at first geared towards other IV drug users whose habits could be putting their lives in peril. While specialists were being flown in from the Center for Disease Control in Atlanta and holding press conferences, it is my understanding that merely a concerned individual close to the victims was responsible for informing the needle exchange program of this life-threatening situation at hand first. Eventually the media’s coverage began to also include more pointed warnings of danger to current IV drug-users, symptoms to look out for and procedures for those who feared possible infection and thankfully the needle exchange program immediately posted and distributed proper warnings and information regarding the danger, and I believe this news and the deaths have hit many users close enough to home for them to make the decision to change their ways. The death of someone close to you is a terrible wake-up call or catalyst for change, especially when the media so far offered up merely their names followed by a comma and two words, those words being drug addict. The friends, companions and co-workers of the two deceased girls, a group of supportive individuals who’ve functioned as a make-shift family in the face of possible estrangement from actual blood relations experienced by many gays, remember Anastasia Michelle Quijas, aka Stacey and Katherine Louise Rian, aka Fiver as far more than just that.

I wasn’t as familiar with Fiver, who was the first to go, but as I understand it she was 33 years old and born in Newark, Ohio and had lived in San Francisco for the last 13 years. She was a writer and musician of note and inspiration to many and a well liked employee of the world-famous End-Up. Even admittedly her friends and those close to her say she was someone who defied description, a free spirit whose acceptance of others was always with a great deal of joy and humor and sweetness of heart. Even now her spirit still shines in the memories of those close to her, perhaps at last free as it always desired.

I knew Stacey Quijas for many years, our association dating way back to I believe the hey day of Female Trouble the groundbreaking club originated by Nancy Kravitz and DJ Stephanie Phillips at the old Nightbreak space in the upper Haight. A one night a week club featuring live female rock bands only (except for an occasional male band forced to perform in drag!), Female Trouble played host to a growing remarkable dyke punk rock scene that spawned such acts as 4 non-Blondes and Tribe 8 and in many respects was the first of it’s kind of alternative to the mainstream sub-culturally identified nightclubs that sprang up out of a definite need for a venue where this new growing movement could comfortably call home. I attended the club frequently, often as the only male present and this could often cause minor degrees of tension, which is where Stacey comes in. Having met Stacey here and there over the years at rock events that weren’t always all female, she would always greet me with a smile or hug or high-five and immediately it was noted by others around us that inspite of my being male, I must be okay because Stacey liked me, and if anyone was rude to me about my, shall we say vaginal-impairment, Stacey and a few others would set them straight, and I always had the feeling that were it necessary they would even go as far as kick some ass on my behalf. Having friends like that made me feel safe, privileged and basically like a million bucks.

She was always a vision of anarchist punk-rock aestheticism, with her leather jacket hung heavy with chains and banners and scarves, tattoos everywhere, a Mohawk haircut that eventually evolved to dreads with a backwards baseball cap, heavy black boots, fingerless gloves and an exemplary attitude that made her without a doubt a perfect dyke punk rock icon. It’s no wonder that her tattooed calves, a skeletal hand on each, one in the shape of an “L” and the other a shape of a “7” graced the cover of L7’s first LP, a huge honor considering that L7 are indeed one of the greatest and most popular all-female hard rocking bands ever, and just recently I heard that Janice the exceptional bassist from our very own bad ass girl rocker outfit Stone Fox is soon to be joining up with L7 for a stint of touring. Funny, that reminds me of a show many years ago, Stone Fox’s first record release party and I was right up in front with the hardcore fans, Stacey included and the dancing got very wild and quite by accident, Stacey’s fingerless gloved hand ended up flying into my face and I swear she nearly took my eye out. I stopped and covered my face, truly frightened for my future of continued 20/20 vision, thoughts of Sandy Duncan and Peter Falk and

Sammy Davis Jr. floating through my mind and Stacey pulled me aside and yanked my hands from my

face and gave me the once over, and said, “You’re okay, c’mon,” and yanked me back into the heat of the motion up front to finish enjoying the show, leaving me with a totally butch-looking black eye the next day that I wore proudly and even captured a date with who was drawn to that new-found rugged look. Stacey’s rugged look also landed her appearances in videos by The Melvins and L7 and she also appeared on the cover of a Tribe 8 record, not to mention lending her able-bodied abilities to set up and breakdown of many bands she’s been roadie for including Bikini Kill. The last time I saw Stacey was at her final place of employment, the End-up, where I hadn’t been seen in quite some time and was pleasantly surprised to find her effervescent smile lighting up the darkest sort of morning bar crawl.

Although the news of Stacey’s death has come to me over two weeks ago, I hadn’t realized how I truly hadn’t reckoned with it personally, and how all these memories are now coming to me and how profoundly sad and tragic it is that this young and vibrant person is no longer with us. This is the hardest sort of writing I’ve ever had to do and lord knows it isn’t the first time. One of the only comforts in writing about this is the simple fact that it may help others in dealing with the loss. I’ve found that the only way to help yourself is to help others who are struggling with the same thing. All of our memories are the only place where those who have died remain forever alive, there and in our imagination if you will, and those are two things that no one can really ever take away from us. It is there where we need to cultivate and continue the lives of our friends, think to yourself, “What would they say if they were here?” and then say it, wear or carry things they once gave you or once belonged to them, do what they would do in a given situation, and never ever forget them. It’s all we can do, and we shall do so with honor, proud of our friends and the lives they led, knowledgeable of our duties from this point on.

At press time a third victim of this horrible bacteria who is definitely a part of the same family of friends and an outstanding guitarist and individual, Cara Crash is hospitalized and still in very serious condition but is a strong girl, well-loved, and courageous and our thoughts and strength of love go out to her. We need you Cara.

One individual who has been there in every way since the beginning of this tragic situation, dealing with the many harrowing details and hospital visits and dealing with the shocked families and the gathering of personal effects and the many things that come about with an untimely death, a co-worker to all three girls Linnea LaSpinosa or LB as she is affectionately known, has been nothing short of a Saint in handling a great deal of the fall out of this tragedy. Her strength goes well beyond what any of us could begin to imagine and we are lucky to have such a caring and courageous person in our midst. A call to the Vatican for beatification is in order and that new Saint for reasons that involve far too long of a story to tell here shall be called Saint Jones. You are our rock, LB.

In the near future look for some benefit and tribute fundraising concerts with a few of the girls favorite bands. Indeed, two words were not enough.

About two weeks ago a tragic event took the lives of two colorful vibrant and very loved individuals and put in extreme peril the life of another and I’m sure many of you were made aware of this tragedy by the evening news and stories in the daily papers. A number of cases of people contracting a deadly flesh-eating bacteria usually through intravenous heroin use were reported in San Francisco, the frightening condition claiming two lives and leaving three others in critical condition, rushed in and out of surgery in attempts to stop the rapidly moving bacteria in the only way possible, by surgically removing the afflicted tissue completely. This horrible tragedy was reported on with an almost sensationalistic, dramatic and grisly manner and in my opinion with out near enough precautionary emphasis at first geared towards other IV drug users whose habits could be putting their lives in peril. While specialists were being flown in from the Center for Disease Control in Atlanta and holding press conferences, it is my understanding that merely a concerned individual close to the victims was responsible for informing the needle exchange program of this life-threatening situation at hand first. Eventually the media’s coverage began to also include more pointed warnings of danger to current IV drug-users, symptoms to look out for and procedures for those who feared possible infection and thankfully the needle exchange program immediately posted and distributed proper warnings and information regarding the danger, and I believe this news and the deaths have hit many users close enough to home for them to make the decision to change their ways. The death of someone close to you is a terrible wake-up call or catalyst for change, especially when the media so far offered up merely their names followed by a comma and two words, those words being drug addict. The friends, companions and co-workers of the two deceased girls, a group of supportive individuals who’ve functioned as a make-shift family in the face of possible estrangement from actual blood relations experienced by many gays, remember Anastasia Michelle Quijas, aka Stacey and Katherine Louise Rian, aka Fiver as far more than just that.

I wasn’t as familiar with Fiver, who was the first to go, but as I understand it she was 33 years old and born in Newark, Ohio and had lived in San Francisco for the last 13 years. She was a writer and musician of note and inspiration to many and a well liked employee of the world-famous End-Up. Even admittedly her friends and those close to her say she was someone who defied description, a free spirit whose acceptance of others was always with a great deal of joy and humor and sweetness of heart. Even now her spirit still shines in the memories of those close to her, perhaps at last free as it always desired.

I knew Stacey Quijas for many years, our association dating way back to I believe the hey day of Female Trouble the groundbreaking club originated by Nancy Kravitz and DJ Stephanie Phillips at the old Nightbreak space in the upper Haight. A one night a week club featuring live female rock bands only (except for an occasional male band forced to perform in drag!), Female Trouble played host to a growing remarkable dyke punk rock scene that spawned such acts as 4 non-Blondes and Tribe 8 and in many respects was the first of it’s kind of alternative to the mainstream sub-culturally identified nightclubs that sprang up out of a definite need for a venue where this new growing movement could comfortably call home. I attended the club frequently, often as the only male present and this could often cause minor degrees of tension, which is where Stacey comes in. Having met Stacey here and there over the years at rock events that weren’t always all female, she would always greet me with a smile or hug or high-five and immediately it was noted by others around us that inspite of my being male, I must be okay because Stacey liked me, and if anyone was rude to me about my, shall we say vaginal-impairment, Stacey and a few others would set them straight, and I always had the feeling that were it necessary they would even go as far as kick some ass on my behalf. Having friends like that made me feel safe, privileged and basically like a million bucks.

She was always a vision of anarchist punk-rock aestheticism, with her leather jacket hung heavy with chains and banners and scarves, tattoos everywhere, a Mohawk haircut that eventually evolved to dreads with a backwards baseball cap, heavy black boots, fingerless gloves and an exemplary attitude that made her without a doubt a perfect dyke punk rock icon. It’s no wonder that her tattooed calves, a skeletal hand on each, one in the shape of an “L” and the other a shape of a “7” graced the cover of L7’s first LP, a huge honor considering that L7 are indeed one of the greatest and most popular all-female hard rocking bands ever, and just recently I heard that Janice the exceptional bassist from our very own bad ass girl rocker outfit Stone Fox is soon to be joining up with L7 for a stint of touring. Funny, that reminds me of a show many years ago, Stone Fox’s first record release party and I was right up in front with the hardcore fans, Stacey included and the dancing got very wild and quite by accident, Stacey’s fingerless gloved hand ended up flying into my face and I swear she nearly took my eye out. I stopped and covered my face, truly frightened for my future of continued 20/20 vision, thoughts of Sandy Duncan and Peter Falk and

Sammy Davis Jr. floating through my mind and Stacey pulled me aside and yanked my hands from my

face and gave me the once over, and said, “You’re okay, c’mon,” and yanked me back into the heat of the motion up front to finish enjoying the show, leaving me with a totally butch-looking black eye the next day that I wore proudly and even captured a date with who was drawn to that new-found rugged look. Stacey’s rugged look also landed her appearances in videos by The Melvins and L7 and she also appeared on the cover of a Tribe 8 record, not to mention lending her able-bodied abilities to set up and breakdown of many bands she’s been roadie for including Bikini Kill. The last time I saw Stacey was at her final place of employment, the End-up, where I hadn’t been seen in quite some time and was pleasantly surprised to find her effervescent smile lighting up the darkest sort of morning bar crawl.

Although the news of Stacey’s death has come to me over two weeks ago, I hadn’t realized how I truly hadn’t reckoned with it personally, and how all these memories are now coming to me and how profoundly sad and tragic it is that this young and vibrant person is no longer with us. This is the hardest sort of writing I’ve ever had to do and lord knows it isn’t the first time. One of the only comforts in writing about this is the simple fact that it may help others in dealing with the loss. I’ve found that the only way to help yourself is to help others who are struggling with the same thing. All of our memories are the only place where those who have died remain forever alive, there and in our imagination if you will, and those are two things that no one can really ever take away from us. It is there where we need to cultivate and continue the lives of our friends, think to yourself, “What would they say if they were here?” and then say it, wear or carry things they once gave you or once belonged to them, do what they would do in a given situation, and never ever forget them. It’s all we can do, and we shall do so with honor, proud of our friends and the lives they led, knowledgeable of our duties from this point on.

At press time a third victim of this horrible bacteria who is definitely a part of the same family of friends and an outstanding guitarist and individual, Cara Crash is hospitalized and still in very serious condition but is a strong girl, well-loved, and courageous and our thoughts and strength of love go out to her. We need you Cara.

One individual who has been there in every way since the beginning of this tragic situation, dealing with the many harrowing details and hospital visits and dealing with the shocked families and the gathering of personal effects and the many things that come about with an untimely death, a co-worker to all three girls Linnea LaSpinosa or LB as she is affectionately known, has been nothing short of a Saint in handling a great deal of the fall out of this tragedy. Her strength goes well beyond what any of us could begin to imagine and we are lucky to have such a caring and courageous person in our midst. A call to the Vatican for beatification is in order and that new Saint for reasons that involve far too long of a story to tell here shall be called Saint Jones. You are our rock, LB.

In the near future look for some benefit and tribute fundraising concerts with a few of the girls favorite bands. Indeed, two words were not enough.

6-17-1999

Quite unexpectedly after trading a shift with a co-worker so he could go see guitar-wizard Adrian Ballew, I realized that this trade not only made it possible for me to attend Trannyshack, the Tuesday night drag phenomenon that I rarely get to witness due to my work schedule, but also catch a band I’ve been intrigued by for quite some time called Makeup at The Great American Music Hall.  At a moments notice a friend of mine, Jesse, agreed to pick me up and attend the show with me and also my friends Adam and Michael the Canadians, one of whom, Michael was celebrating his 29th birthday, said they would meet me there.  It’s always a joy to run into them because they are such a pair of witty culture vultures, fey, willowy girly-man art-fags with berets, dyed hair always in shades from the never-occurs-in-nature-color-chart and wearing lots of perfectly meticulously applied make-up, or as my mother would say, “Painted up like whores.”  As pretty as all of that might sound, don’t be fooled by these hothouse flowers, they are as caustic a pair of vicious queens as they come, and that’s all the more reason I adore them.  I even think that Canada must have banished them from the provinces because they seldom return there for long and are constantly telling me of their past abuses of the Canadian welfare and medical systems, like “In Canada when you call an ambulance they have to pick you up and for no charge, unlike here, so one time we got so drunk we couldn’t move and were laying in the snow so we called an ambulance, “ or exactly what they would go through and what stories they’d tell to get scripts of seconal and halcyon and valium for free because that’s what they do in Canada I guess.  You may recall me telling you about their trip to LA, which culminated with a visit to some huge Hollywood cemetery where suffering from heat stroke and out of cigarettes as well, they perched atop a fence and as funeral parties solemnly marched by they’d call out, “Was it anybody famous?”  They are so very funny.

Speaking of famous people, while waiting at will call for my tickets I ran into someone I haven’t seen in a very long time, a delightful British girl I used to work with named Lucinda who now runs an art gallery next door to a place to buy fancy coffins on Valencia.  She is an effervescent, intelligent and beautiful girl, and so forthcoming with compliments on my writing I started to blush and I introduced her to Adam and Michael, “my caustic fabulous artfag friends who are moving to London soon.”   One of them is doing an internship at an art gallery just right across the street from where I live, so I figured they’d have something in common to talk about, like moving to London, working in a gallery or even how nervous Adam is that someone from the gallery might by chance see him ringing the bell to come into my house sometime, an apparent house of ill repute.  Hmmm. Oh the constant chore it is to shake the stigma of living above (gasp) a bar, or knowing someone who does. Kind of like being a Canadian or just knowing some.  But speaking of famous people, as I was, Lucinda’s sister is actress Robin Wright, or rather Robin Wright-Penn, wife of Sean Penn.  I remembered hearing tales of their wedding years ago from Lucinda and her boyfriend at that time Matt, rubbing elbows with the likes of Harry Dean Stanton and Marlon Brando and stuff.   Lucinda said that her friends in LA had seen Makeup the night before and called and told her she absolutely must see this band.  I know Adam and Michael were just dying to ask which friends, and if they were famous.

The place was packed full, nearly sold out with a predominantly straight, young and hip crowd.  We hung back and chatted with Adam and Michael in favor of listening to a rather loud and mostly instrumental opening band.  Adam asked me excitedly, “Did you see this mornings Chronicle about a terrible accident in western Canada?  A Car driven by a man whose wife was four months pregnant with twins and her mother was also along for the ride went out of control and off the road and who was the first person on the scene of this accident?  Courtney Love!  Holes tour bus was right behind them and she rushed to the scene and helped the two women from the vehicle and took them back to the tour bus and served them warm tea until ambulances arrived.”  You see, she is a superhero, as well as a Renaissance woman, having recently accepted a role in a small film playing the wife of William S. Burroughs, the one whom, you guessed it, got shot in the head by her spouse playing that William Tell game with a gun and a glass of water.  She also just cancelled out of Holes much publicized two dates on the Lillith Fair Tour, an idea I found somewhat risky, like Courtney would end up saying something touchy and offend everyone.  As it turns out—she won’t even have the chance, but the boys told me that The Pretenders’ Chrissie Hynde reportedly did adequately enough in that department, prompting boos from the crowd of the sapphic summer concert series by telling a couple vulgar and inappropriate wife-beating jokes during her Lillith appearances.  What was she thinking?  Just being a rebel?  Adam said, “She’s old, she doesn’t know what she’s saying.”  Those two are just a treasure trove of information.  Probably all lies, they’ve done that to me before, convincing me once that Betty White had died and she hadn’t.

They also informed me of a show that I would unfortunately have to miss due to my work schedule and that was an appearance by New York’s The Toilet Boys coming up that Friday.  This was a coincidence because Jesse had brought me their latest cd to borrow and listen to.  The boys even tried to persuade me to quit my job just so I could witness the magic of the Toilet Boys live, but I just couldn’t do that, not even for fire-breathing drag queen vocalists and guitars in flames and a re-enactment of the prom scene from Carrie live onstage.  But I loved the CD, and the night of the show the boys came by my workplace and gave me a Toilet Boys T-shirt.  Many people had shown up at The Hole in the Wall after the show and when I played one of the Toilet Boys songs it drew cheers from the crowd.  That’s a good indication that this band is capturing a fair amount of fans here.

But back to Makeup—the lights dimmed and Jesse and I worked our way up towards the stage for a decent vantage point and three members, all in identical red leisure suits came out strapped on and started in on a basic funky James Brown-like groove.  After a minute or so up jumped the charismatic frontman I’ve heard so much about, all wild-eyed and alternately exploding in herky-jerky go-go motion then freezing and fixing an intense gaze on the crowd, screaming like a cross between James Brown, a Pentecostal minister and Prince, and wearing a hair style that looked more like a wig than natural hair ever should.  He whipped the crowd immediately into a frenzy I could only liken to a gospel revival, holding the microphone with his teeth and screaming long and high like James Brown again, stopping the band to “preach” a bit about the first word from his mouth as a baby was “yeah” and prompting the audience to repeat and howl and raise their hands in the air and then he did something I’ve never seen before and really didn’t think possible.  He proceeded to walk upright into the crowd, people’s hands supporting his feet and walked over their heads delivering the remainder of his song/sermon standing fully erect supported by the audience.  He employed methods more inherent in stage acting than rock and roll-—breaking his demeanor from trance-like speaking in tongues to intensely focused and making as many members of the audience as possible feel he was looking directly at them for a second or two.  It was a pretty explosive and exciting approach, the band adequately thumping and throbbing away while this zealous mad man preacher testified while standing tall over the heads of the crowd, which was going wild.  However, one thing kept nagging at me about this display.  He is white and the crowd was to for the most part.  While I could see how one could be swept up by the energy of it all, there was something very insincere or overly self-conscious about this.  I got the feeling that this group of musicians could up and re-invent themselves as some other type of band tomorrow perhaps.

I really like the groups three studio LPs and play them frequently, their crunchy lo-fi punk white-boy soul style and funny and absurd lyrics and over the top vocal delivery makes for a raucous unhinged good time, but live, I’m afraid their sound didn’t resemble these efforts closely enough—the overall show being too reliant on the charisma and antics of the vocalist.  That’s not to say the band was incompetent, they definitely had some hot moments, but I definitely understood the one criticism a certain friend of mine had about Makeup.  He said they were a little bit too much style-over-content for his liking.  I now understand the comment, but I did enjoy the show for the most part except for the sloppy finale that had members of the opening bands join Makeup for a bad sloppy version of Hendrixs’ “Hey Joe.”  On the way out I didn’t see the boys so I gathered they didn’t like it, which they confirmed with a phone call the next day.  Jesse and I then headed for Trannyshack and the theme for the evening there was “Impostor Night.”  How appropriate.

 

6-15-1999

When the Holiday season starts rolling into everyone’s consciousness, inevitably thoughts come around to ones family, memories, possible pilgrimages home, sentimental gift giving, all that lovey-dovey warm and fuzzy stuff.  I know that these holiday feelings aren’t the ones particularly associated with me and my own general take on the season, but at times they have been and it was wonderful.  But Christmas comes but once a year, and families go through a lot of other things on those other 364 days of the year, so I decided to deck the halls with a brief summary of my family’s not so boughs-of-holly, not so quick to give thanks for, day to day trials and tribulations of the year.  This is the stuff that nice soap on a rope or Fruit-of-the-Month gift certificate isn’t really gonna make any better in the long run.  It’s rich though, indeed.

I recently got a letter in the mail from my  sister, who is ten years my senior and probably the only one of my three siblings I really care enough about to keep in touch with.  She’s the oldest and I’m the youngest and my two brothers in between have sort have always been on the outs with us, and in and out of jail, loveless marriages, mental institutions, custody battles, more marriages, failed business ventures like panning for gold with a dredge, and even Field and Stream magazines year end hunting records, but in the eyes of my sister and I, they’ve caused my mother far too much grief with their ongoing white-trash high drama episodes of catastrophic situations ranging from re-possessed cars, posting bail, domestic violence, and quitting the best mill jobs they’ll ever get just to make opening day of deer season, not to mention stealing my mom’s jewelry and some of my late stepfathers guns and pawning them, or ending up in jail for poaching deer outside of the boundaries of the Indian reservation where his full-blooded girlfriend lived, or stealing and wrecking mom’s car, or the trail of illegitimate babies in the tri

-state pacific northwest area they left along the way, and I could go on.  At any rate, one of my brothers, in his fifth marriage, seems to have shaped up a bit, just in time to get lung cancer, the other is no longer allowed around the family whatsoever because of his habitual thievery and his manic-depressive diagnosis made by a shrink in an institution that prompted him to fully believe and tell everyone that his condition “…..is all Mom’s fault, doctor told me.”

Well anyway, by way of my mothers occasional letters, I had learned that my sisters two youngest children were giving her some unbelievable disciplinary problems kind of out of the blue, kind of mirroring behaviors of their bad uncles.  The last time I had seen them was on an idyllic little Christmas at home, all of us siblings together for the first time in years, a visit that went very well and was quite nurturing and positive and upbeat, no fights, no one grabbing the baby, or a gun from behind the front door and jumping in the car, no tears, no digging up any buried axes for a rehashing, and lord there were many, just a good old fashioned Walton-like family Christmas, commanded by my mother, whose widow status of four years since the death of my wicked stepfather, gave her request for such an assemblage a rather imperious tone.  It was like Victoria Barkley had called all of her sons back to The Big Valley , even Heath, and everyone had better show up.

In tow were all my nieces and nephews, of course, and there were many, and yet still more who were not present due to bitter custody battles, restraining orders, and unknown teenage runaway status. My sisters boys were 11 and 13 and they were really a lot of fun.  They seemed polite for the most part and quite bright and properly worshipful of the only person there with a leather motorcycle jacket—an article of clothing that intrigues kids from toddlers to teens, really.  I left the reunion thinking my sisters kids were just fine, soon to be fine young men, educated, well-bred, etc., breaking the odd jailbird legacy that I so tried to eradicate throughout grade school, Junior high and Highschool, following my two older brothers bad reputations and the other ugly fact that my father was the janitor at two of those schools while I attended, and I was the product of a (gasp) broken home—my parents were divorced, and right about that time my home town had the highest divorce rate in the entire nation.  I tell you, Oregon is a truly weird place in so many ways.

Well, not long after that trip home, my mother started sending me letters with some very shocking news about my sisters two boys.  It seemed like merely days had passed before my mother was telling me that those well-behaved, respectful, good egg nephews of mine had plunged head first into essentially every imaginable bad boy behavior known to teenage-dom.  In that certain way that my mom has of making things sound upon retelling, she proceeded to list the offensive behaviors of the kids, how she just wouldn’t take it, and what she’d do if they were her kids, the horrible time they were inflicting on my sister, and the inevitable question, where did my sister and her husband go wrong in bringing those kids up.    I was shocked speechless as I learned that the 11 year old was found to be having sex with a girl age 16, both kids had fully embraced the dark world of drug use and were declared addicts, their schools didn’t want them due to their disrespectful behavior, soon enough the police were involved almost daily with visits to their home, they apparently had started dealing all sorts of drugs, (they were caught growing poppies and splicing them for the opiated sap, which is really quite advanced for 12 and 14 year olds, if you’re into that sort of thing, but I was more likely to be found trying to cook up a crank-y concoction with Vicks nasal inhalers and other things at that age) the 11 year old had bouts of anxiety, depression and was at times suicidal, they ran away, and then the real clincher was the older boy 13, was found guilty of child molestation or sexual abuse of a neighbor boy age 6.  My mom didn’t go into very much detail on that one but went on to say that the boys were making my sister unable to work and utilize her recently earned Beautician License because she had to constantly supervise the kids—by law—taking them to their AA meetings, sexual offender counseling, probation and parole meetings, etc.  My mom had decided that she just plain didn’t like her bad seed grandsons for all the hell they were putting my sister through, because as she put it, “…I’m not going to like anyone if they hurt her because she’s my baby.”  In her advanced years my mother has grown very cut and dry regarding where she places her attentions and affections—she’s gotten tough and a bit ice-y but I like that.  She is Victoria Barkley, I can see her picking people off with a rifle, white-haired, wearing gauchos and a little vest if any threat came to hers and her own.  Yet come supper time, she’d still be elegant.  But anyway, these second hand reports had really got me wondering so I wrote my sister a letter, first time in several years, asking what the hell was going on.  Finally she responded and it was epic—15 pages, but I finally got the real story—which I’ll condense and summarize briefly.

Like so many of this worlds problems, my sisters family’s odyssey of problems began at Church—a kids night of games, refreshments and bible activities that any parent would be glad to know their children were attending.  Later that night the older boy Cole, phoned home and said Austin, his younger brother had flipped out and ran away from the church.  As it turns out, someone had slipped him some LSD in his punch.  They eventually found him curled up into a ball in a cardboard box behind the QFC market.  He wouldn’t let them near him and it took several days before he calmed down.  My sister and her husband both claim they never did LSD so they didn’t know the experience, but I remember my sister dating a guy when she moved back home after her first marriage ended, teased her hair real big, wore tight jumpsuits, and dated a guy who was busted for dealing LSD in my home town.  Hmmmmmm. Anyway, after this incident they noticed a steady deterioration in both the boys behavior.  They knew something was wrong but couldn’t figure it out.  As it turned out, a 16 year old girl Austin saw a fair amount of, a friend he visited regularly, supposedly supervised by her parents, was the one who slipped him the LSD and subsequently would get him high when he visited, and have sex with him.  This happened four different times.  The situation led them to the courtroom where it all unfolded in ugly full nitty-gritty details, leading to the girl being charged with four counts of Childrape, incarceration, probation and sexual offender counseling.  After the fact, four other blonde blue-eyed little boys came forward with the same stories.  She later became pregnant and tried pulling a paternity claim on my nephew.

By this time the brothers seemed to band together in the face of this crisis and turned to drugs and major badboy behaviors.  Suddenly there were suspicious phone calls from strange men and with a bit of parental phone snooping, my sister learned that the boys were buying, selling, making and using literally every type of recreational drug, and dealing with connections as far away as Portland,  Yakima,  and Seattle, with grown men, not other kids.  Eventually this started to get out of hand and the phone calls became threatening.  One night a woman drove up to their house and warned them to stay off the street or they would be killed, then another night a man called and said they had better not get too comfortable because they were going to torch the house and make sure everyone was inside. Subsequently the boys were run off the road by a car and injured falling into a berry bush covered ravine.  Once on their way to an AA meeting, one of the only things they were allowed to leave the house for, some one drove by and doused them with vodka.  The police were at my sisters home almost everyday for some new offense.  They ran away once and said they were going to SF to stay with me.  My sister said, “I bet you’re glad they didn’t.”  I bet some of my friends would have been more than happy with their arrival.

Then came the real clincher.  Some new family moved in to their neighborhood with a pair of kids, a 12 year old girl and a six year old boy, and the kids became friendly and were often over at each others houses.  My sister had not met the kids mother face to face, only over the telephone, but she seemed nice and said the boys were always welcome to visit their house etc.  One night the boys were over and the woman of the house had a migraine and cajoled a neck and back massage out of Cole the oldest boy, on her bed and all which was highly inappropriate.  Returning suddenly from Mrs. Robinson territory to child’s play, the kids were playing hide and seek and it was Cole’s turn to seek.  While the others hid he went to the bathroom to take a piss and while doing so the six year old jumped out of his hiding place and came up and touched Cole’s

private parts as it were.  He told him to knock it off and zipped up and left the bathroom.  The boys returned home and went to bed and two hours later the police came, saying they had just been to the house the kids had visited filing a report against Cole for sexually abusing their six year old boy.

After a full year of constant horrible court dates and many times when Cole was taken away from them and held in Juvenile Detention for a total of 4 months, he was found guilty of Child Molestation.  He had to be legally registered as a sexual offender, the police delivered flyers with his picture and described offense to the entire local area, my sisters entire family was shunned by the small town they live in, people would grab their children and run indoors, no more invites to family barbecues and coffee klatches, etc.  Not that they would have had time what with parole and probation meetings, trackers checking up on them, personal counseling, family counseling, drug and alcohol classes, sex offender classes, parents of sex offenders classes, the works, essentially still keep them all pretty controlled but things are finally returning to normal.  An additional footnote on the family that filed charges, the man and wife filed for divorce and blamed it all on Cole.  They also let the kids have beer and watch porn videos and look at dirty magazines while visiting, all points that didn’t seem to matter in a court of law.

My sister finally maintains that through all of this her family has stuck together and gotten through it okay by the grace of God.  She says they’ve learned to trust no one, have gone full circle and feel no shame, and only hope that they might be able to help others who like themselves thought, this could never happen to my family.  She’s finally started her own business, a Mobile Hair Care Service and is confident that it will take off soon.  The end.  I don’t really know why I wrote all about this—something about the season, something about what’s real, something about where I’m from.  I think I’ll write my sister more often.

5-22-1999 school shooting

Well, it was another one of those weeks where I really didn’t know what to write about as deadline loomed in, closer and closer.  Settling down to write was complicated by yet another computer trauma, that being the machine I was used to writing with was suddenly taken back by the person who left it with me, well after I had fully adopted it as my own and fed and nurtured it with all the necessities and programming best suited for my needs.  Oh well, that’s what happens when you have a sneaking suspicion that this information appliance you’ve been using quite possibly fell off the back of a truck in the first place.  At any rate, I must have bitched and moaned enough about it to the right people because in no time at all a friend of mine showed up at my door with a formidable PC, likely on it’s way to the computer graveyard due to the swift nature of upgrades and rapid technological advances.  Actually it’s a pretty nice machine, and not quite ready for a trip to the cyber-boneyard after all, so I’m back in business thanks to my thoughtful and generous friend Ric.  I have a computer and it’s mine, all mine, no matter whom is behind on rent.

With that obstacle overcome I was free to settle in and write…but about what?  I was stumped again.  The television news was on over my shoulder and I heard the news announcer say, “Once again, bullets fly, students fall at a high school in Georgia….” and I thought, no, not again, I can’t write about another High School shooting, not even to say I told you so (which I did in my Columbine Copycat article, Volume 20 Number 15).   A week prior to this on Mothers day to be exact former childstar Dana Plato accidentally overdosed in a motor home after a heavily troubled post-stardom adult life, beginning with an unplanned pregnancy at age 19 that got her fired from her sitcom, a descent into drug addiction, resorting to softcore pornography as her career faded, and her eventual arrest and conviction for armed robbery of a Las Vegas video store.  Then I considered the similar troubles her two co-star child actors went through–one assaulted a autograph seeking fan just recently, the other shot his crack dealer in the head 4 times–and then I suddenly remembered that a former SF resident who shall remain nameless, known for leading a very successful and longrunning theatre group through numerous insane productions citywide, had once confessed to me that his own father, now deceased, actually robbed the very same video store that Dana Plato hit, exited with the money and went directly

next door to a casino and started drinking and gambling until the police apprehended him there.  Cool huh?  I thought so, and I also got to thinking that in many ways it has always been tough to be a teen in this world, or to follow in their misguided criminal footsteps too.  Perhaps that’s why I tend to play up each and every teen tragedy that the media hurls our way–to point out that hey, even in our youth focussed society with all your Britney Spears’ and Brandys’ and Jennifer Love Hewitts’ and other rich pop-phenomenon twelve year old multimillionaire stars and model teens–it ain’t really like that for most so don’t believe it.  This is america, we like our childstars washed up and tragic by adulthood and our teens cut down in their prime by the angry gunfire of the direct result of their snotty cruel need to place themselves above others they don’t understand, just like their parents do in their adult life.  But I just brought that up so I could mention that a friends father robbed the same place as Dana Plato, god rest her soul–or maybe not–they just released autopsy findings that concluded it was suicide rather than accidental overdose.  Which brings to mind some more findings on another famous corpse, Tammy Wynette.  Buried a year, her daughters had her body exhumed to try and blame a doctor and her husband for the singers’ death.  They found she died of  heart failure but I believe her daughters had dropped the possible charges against her husband anyway.  It was all hardly worth all that digging and nonsense.  It’s not like she was Eva Peron or something, whose corpse and it’s many travels I familiarized myself with from a website called rotten.com which  features, among other things, a section called Celebrity Morgue, and we’re not talking gravestones here–it’s the real thing,  from Josef Stalin to Mother Teresa and even Andrew Cunanan.  It’s worth a visit.

It was online, a site called Rock on TV (www.rockontv.com) that I discovered that Hole was to be on David Letterman on thursday night, which of course excited me but i couldn’t very well write about it.  I write about Courtney and high School shootings far too much, but I watched and Courtney came out as a guest first and was really funny and engaging and flirtatious and dressed way down.  They had a definite rapport, her and Dave.  Then after a commercial break the band performed their latest single, “Awful” and again, scored with a powerful proper showing of talent, guts and angst.  Then right at the end of the song Courtney stood on the drum platform and jumped off backwards and actually fell on her ass but the show was closing and it didn’t really look that wrong or stupid–she  saved herself somehow, with a smile or perhaps it was the strength of the bands overall performance.  It was great.  But I wasn’t going to write about that, so I went out for a drink at the Hole in The Wall.

At the Hole I tossed back a shot of Jack Daniels and moaned to the bartender, Doug Hilsinger, that I didn’t have anything to write about.  He immediately shot back, “Write about the brand new Bomb record that’s out.”  Odd that I hadn’t thought of that, I’ve had the new release for a couple months now, but it’s not odd that Doug thought of it, seeing as he plays guitar for Bomb, the now defunct local group who over a year ago reunited for one show and some studio time.  The fruits of this reunion would be the seven song EP Lovesucker, on Wingnut records.  This ep was a long time coming with a couple of defective pressings needing to be returned to the manufacturer and redone completely, but finally it is available and a very good release.  In fact, rumor has it that the four members may just reunite yet again for a record release party.  Anyone who caught their reunion gig last year knows how phenomenal this band is live, and walked away in disbelief that four musicians can be so good and not be together.  It seems like a crime, but there is this new record, and it has a few new songs and a couple of old ones that were previously only available on a rare 7-inch single, one of which is a fantastic cover of the Depeche Mode song “Personal Jesus.” At last, with Jay and Doug dishing up heavenly guitar-torque and punch, the song finally swells into the power of otherworldliness that the limp synth treatment of the original falls short of.  The recording is a bit more cleaned up on Lovesucker than the original version, which is a bonus.  Same goes for the anthemic, bic-lighters-in-the-air-swaying, lilt of “Nineteen”, the party for the end of the world song.  The real gem among the new songs is definitely “Die”, which repeats that verb as a command repeatedly and sometimes is precisely the sentiment I want to put across when I DJ, like when you see a certain person or an unacceptable behavior.  My personal favorite on the disc is the haunting and beautifully disturbing “No Color In Utah,” with it’s breathy high-pitched choral-like vocals matched to the slow gothic plodding darkness of this cut’s mood, delivered thick and constant.  It’s really creepy.

I’m glad Doug reminded me of the disc and to write about it because it is most definitely a great listen and available at most record stores now.  Buy it and bear in mind that we might possibly have a chance to see Bomb again for a record release party in the near future.

Speaking of upcoming events, my friend Nancy Kravitz phoned me up the other day just bursting to tell me of a triple bill coming to Bottom Of The Hill that is not to be missed.  It’s the return of Skunk Anansie, the British sensation led by a wiry black bald dyke named Skin and they are incredible and I can’t believe they’re playing such a small place.  Their third and reportedly best LP is finished and as of this time, not picked up or distributed by any label stateside–it seems they haven’t broke the market stateside yet but it’s only a matter of time I’m certain.  What’s even better is also on this bill is our very own Black Kali Ma, Gary Floyds new band who you’ve heard me sing the praises of repeatedly, and rounding out the bill is Fabulous Disaster, Nancy Kravitz’s all girl band  who reportedly kick ass fast and hard.  I can’t wait.  Buy your tickets in advance or you may be sorry.  This takes place on Saturday June 12, 1999.

5-11-1999

Recently I attended the Wide Load Festival at The Eagle Tavern.  It was a two day event in the new tradition set by the first live music event the bar hosted a few months back after ownership changed, The Hole In The Wall-apalooza.  With it’s second foray into presenting a multi-band rock and roll bill for the bars patrons, The Eagle, under the knowledgeable guidance of  DJ/Guitar God/recording engineer/Bartender/Organizer Doug Hilsinger, threw together two consecutive nights of music featuring over 12 different bands, all for free.  I missed the Friday night installment of Wide Load because I had to D.J. at The Hole in The Wall but it reportedly went very well.  High points included The Hall Flowers, an acoustic trio featuring the sisters Hall, who are the rhythm section and voices of Ovarian Trolley, joined by their mother.  I really wanted to see them but they play around town occasionally.  Another featured band on Friday night was Planet Seven, whose debut LP, Pleasurecraft Recovery Theme            , was merely a promise fulfilled after hearing the well-crafted bitchin surf-style bent of their first two seven inch singles.  Their mostly instrumental stance hits like a sublime wash on the sand as opposed to that shoot-the-tube gonzo bikini-go go dancers in the sand type of surf music.  They sound less like Dick Dale and more like The Ventures but without any Wipe-outs. Instead, a strange array of contemporary effects and influences and a sense of humor come into play  as well as slower lilting subtleties.  Their version of Lara’s Theme from the film Dr. Zhivago is a brilliant example of  the bands tongue-in-cheek humor matching an intoxicating aural quality.  Then from the freezing siberian tundra  Planet Seven can whip you right down into a ripping mexican ode to beer called Cerveza that does actually bring Mr. Dale to mind.  Buy their record.  Their set was reportedly good on night one of the wide load fiesta but I’ll have to catch them at a later date.

Saturday Night I arrived just as it was getting dark outside and the band onstage when I walked in was called Glamtastic, a T-Rex cover band, featuring many people I know but had no idea that they ever played an instrument, along with members from other featured bands of the night, as well as a couple of good-natured singers, tambourine players, and friends adding in their handclaps and would-be harmonies.  It was a loose and fun tribute that had me alternately laughing or tapping my foot.  Next up was a three piece band called Cellophane Solution and I didn’t get much background information on them and I couldn’t have picked three more disparate looking individuals making up a band, a beefy skinhead-looking guy, a thin white guy w/dreads and a drummer with a decidedly retro 70’s rocker dude permed hair thing going on.  Together they created a sort of twisted yet engaging fast-paced punk rock sound with nice blunt lyrical messages like “I don’t want to be your friend anymore,” and a funny cover of “Margaritaville,” which I could’ve done without.  Don’t get me wrong though, they were very good and their set maintained my interest thoroughly.

After their set I ran into Gary Floyd, formerly of The Dicks, Sister Double Happiness, The Gary Floyd Band, etc. and he introduced me to a guy saying, “This is my guitarist,” and I suddenly remembered that one of the main reasons I had come to the Eagle that night was to catch the debut of Gary’s new band, Black Kali Ma, which was two sets away, giving me time to run home for a bite to eat, check into the roster at The Transmission Theater to find out what time the band Deadbolt was due on stage at the Incredibly Strange Wrestling event being held there because I always wanted to see this spooky surf/rockabilly act who put out hilarious, verging on novelty records and claim to be the scariest band alive, make a phone call or two to a couple friends who wouldn’t want to miss this, then dash back to the Eagle in time to catch the debut of  Gary Floyd’s Black Kali Ma.  Deadbolt was due onstage at 1:30, got my hand stamped thanks to Damien at the door of the Transmission who really makes life simple on many occasions, and I zipped back to the Eagle just as Gary’s band was hitting stage.  Photographer Marc Geller and fellow scribe Adam Block breezed in just on time also, tipped off by my call.  I love it when things go like this.

What I love even more is Gary Floyd onstage fronting a hard-rocking outfit like this new configuration, still burning with all the frontman finesse, conviction, power and that salt-of-the-earth blues wail that chose most often to say so much even back before it was de riguer for every chart-hungry success story, every third eye blind, to bear a social consciousness.  Gary has always had a lot to say, about gayness, AIDS, poverty, politics, etc., and Black Kali Ma’s material proved that he still does and he’s back full force, his band bristling with a strength and edge that was surprisingly tight and effective for this act’s debut.  While keeping subject matter up to date with songs like “Angel Face,” about the many schoolyard killings spilling blood all over our television time, Black Kali Ma quite cleverly updated and included a couple of classic Dicks selections throughout their set like “Sidewalk Begging” and the unforgettable and so smart to be re-vamped right now, “Dicks Hate The Police,” which fittingly closed their first ever set with a hell of an ass-kicking in the right direction–anger can empower, not just embitter.  This was fresh.  Watch for more gigs by Black Kali Ma–this feels almost as good as it gets, and it’s just getting started.

Next up was DJ Crisco’s three-piece band, The New Lows, for which he plays drums and I listened to their entire set swell from a rather mild beginning to a driving, kinetic powerful garage-y groove.  They just got better and better, prompting an automatic head-bobbing involvement that was effortless and self-propelled.  I really liked The New Lows who showed much improvement over their previous appearance at The Eagle a few months back.  Before I knew it, it was time to run over to the Transmission to catch Deadbolt, who had just taken the stage as I walked in.  They were pretty good and definitely funny but I wasn’t sure if it was because of the nature of the Incredibly Strange Wrestling bill they were playing or what, but there was this really strong antagonism between band and audience, much throwing of plastic cups and “fuck yous” from the crowd, idle threats from the band, etc., and it got a bit tired so I quickly found myself back at The Eagle, down in front for Doug Hilsingers 70’s cover bandThe Freedom Rockers, doing a great version of “We’re An American Band.”  This was a much better far more enjoyable vibe than standing around in a crowd of mostly heterosexual yahoos acting out the bad behaviors learned from watching too much Shock Talk television programming.   A good vibe was the prevailing thought about the Wide Load Festival as it drew to a close.  What an array of really great bands who played merely for what money was collected by passing a hat, which meant everyone walked with about $15 bucks and likely a higher blood/alcohol level than they arrived with.The best thing about the event though was the unignorable feeling that a new tradition is most definitely being set and you can look forward to more similar events in the future at The Eagle Tavern, and that’s all good.

Here I’ve gone and used up all my space on a lesser known and wholey satisfying event and failed to concentrate at all on The Gay and Lesbian Bisexual Transgender Pride Parade and Celebration, which gave one of the aforementioned bands, The New Lows, a run for their namesake.  Sorry, but between strolling by the Macy’s and Thierry Mueggler booths, watching careless planning on all levels make false entertainment claims then boot some of our brightest most giving local acts off the main-stage roster, it’s no wonder that my disappointed companion and I ended up cutting out early and painting the bathroom at home.  The best thing about the big Gay weekend were the stickers made up by my fellow DJ Brian at The Hole, which boasted a Rainbow colored dollar sign and said, “Shakin’ it up, shakin’ us down, selling us out.”  Thanks Brian, that pretty much said it all.  Is it time for change or what?

 

5-11-1997 trannyshack

I know it’s a little after the fact but I feel I must say something about a recent event I attended that was probably the most fun I’ve had in a night out on the town in a very long time, and that event was the Second Annual Miss Trannyshack Pageant held at the spacious and legendary Trocadero a couple weeks ago.  Trannyshack, having packed the Stud bar to the rafters nearly every Tuesday for a couple years now showcasing fabulous drag performances, had to resort to a larger venue for this grand event, especially after having to turn people away from the event last year in droves.  Heklina, Pippi, Juanita More, and the rest of the Tranny-clan knew they had a monster on their hands and special measures had to be taken in order for this fine spectacle to be  successful, enjoyable and comfortable for the audience and performers, and not turn into a bloodbath, crowd hysteria or a mass alcoholic blackout, not that this group of folks aren’t fully and completely used to that latter situation.    In fact some train for this state every Tuesday, bless their pickled hearts, spackled faces and hit-the-floor determination to not really remember how they got home.  Trannyshack and The Miss Trannyshack Pageant is an institution as worthy and delightful as any of the great drag events in other major metropolitan areas, replete with colorful and excessive regular characters and clever originators.  No doubt it could become the subject of yet another documentary by yet another young independent gay film-maker at yet another Gay and Lesbian Film Festival.  Whenever something this fun or exciting is going on, one tends to hope it’s being recorded in some way for the archives, for a sense of history, an aspect that for obvious reasons, Gays tend to lose sight of.

Speaking of a sense of history, the assembled crowd at the pageant was made up of many old friends whom I hadn’t seen out, all of us in one place on a Saturday night, in possibly 3 or 4 years.  It was delightful, even warm and fuzzy-feeling if you can imagine the ever-cynical nasty me feeling sentimental about such things.  But I was, and it was nice being surrounded by a veritable Who’s Who of prominent SF Nightlifers and Performers and Activists, early 90’s editions.  Oh the crazy things we did.  The entire Trannyshack phenomenon seemed a natural legacy, a tradition carried on with finesse and a lot of work by Heklina and Pippi, both looking positively smashing that night.  Heklina wore a very unique Mr. David creation that defied comparison to any known fashion structure I could come up with, but somehow combined looks from both Auntie Mame and Barbarella.  Mr. David is a genius.  I must also say that it’s been a long time since I’ve seen so many handsome young men assembled in one place, fans of the Trans.

I won’t go in to full detail because the event has already been covered but I can’t sum up without saying that 1996 Miss Trannyshack The Steve Lady, put on the most magical multi-media spectacle of awe, attitude and total beauty of the entire night.  And she did so at the top of the evening, before all of this years contestants made their own bid for the title.  Rightfully put in their humble places, The Steve Lady while relinquishing her title, clearly established to this years contestants, all people present, and–by word of mouth– even those not present, that she is undoubtedly Queen of The Night.  FOREVER!  She’s the most ravishing splendid creature alive, hands down.  All Hail.  How can she be such Total Godhead?  The Steve Lady is a miracle.

The night unfolded at a healthy pace, hilights including Heklina’s reworking of the B52’s song “Loveshack” into “Trannyshack” with hilariously base lyrics about blacking out and the age-old tranny credo of “so hurry up and give us all your money.”I also would like to note the twisted awesome sounds coming from DJ Robeena Diet Biscuit.  He’s managed to grow since the beginning of Trannyshack from unsettlingly kitschy weirdness and pop-cultural fright relics to a stylistically smooth amalgam of, well,  these things still,  but it sounds more congruous and appropriate to the wild world of Trannyshack, like the perfect soundtrack, or the music and voices that a person descending into madness might hear.  He uses samples of dialogue from movies and television and plays things faster or slower than normal and it’s really quite crafty and sick.  Impressive.  As was his incredible vocal performance at the end of the night when the judges were making their decision.  What a pleasant surprise it was for Robbie to remind us all that he is indeed an extraordinary performance artist and that he’s kind of been laying low in that department lately.  Finally, a hearty congratulations to Miss Trannyshack 1997, Nikki Star, who lip-synced a medley so long and so fervently it wowed the judges to declare her winner.  I love that point when gross excess transforms into frenzied high comedy.  She ended the epic dramatic fury of song with a running somersault and the lips didn’t miss a quiver.  Bravo, and Bravo to Trannyshack for such a grand entertaining extravaganza in true San Francisco style.

The following week I got  a taste of entertainment in the style of another great city when the New York-based band/possible musical sensation–next big thing, Jonathan Fire*Eater hit SF’s Great American Music Hall touring in support of their second LP, their first for the Dreamscape label, Wolf Songs For Lambs.  For awhile now there’s been quite a buzz going about this band of five young and privileged prep school boys (three were students at Columbia, one at Bard and one at Sarah Lawrence) who took the East Village by storm with their odd and passionate farfisa-enhanced punchy rocking-retro sounds.  I missed their previous shows in SF but bought all their records which I find very enjoyable and fun.  The only real flaw or undesirable quality I found in their recorded work was that after awhile each song sounds a little too much like the one before it, but taken in small doses, my interest was quite piqued by their engaging  and taut musical tension and abstract sense of humor.  I also have a real fondness for the farfisa organ and people respond very well to this band when I DJ.  I was very excited about the show.

After arriving and being made to wait an extra long “we’re big stars now, they ‘ll wait” time for the quintet to take the stage, the band filtered out one at a time and started playing, adding an instrument at a time to the growing churning swell of sound.  Finally the vocalist came out last and just one look told you why that might be.  He looked so very much like he had just gotten so very high, kind of like the way John Travolta looks in that scene in Pulp Fiction when he’s driving.  I know it’s not fair for me to say that, chances are I’m completely wrong.  He may have just been acting like he was high, like the way David Yow of Jesus Lizard always appears to be drunk while onstage when he’s really not.  Nonetheless, his hanging-on-the-microphone-stand posture, that light glistening of perspiration creeping over his face and the vibrating intensity of his vocal delivery, had “smack-induced” written all over him.  That’s not to say he wasn’t good, quite the contrary, this is a fine vocalist and a great frontman.  Romantic and romanticizing, so there.  He never pulled his sleeves up once.

Another inescapable attribute of this band is their youthful, fresh and smouldering good looks.  I must say, in this respect they took my breath away.  Totally.  If Sassy magazine were still cool and still around Jonathan Fire*Eater would definitely rate a Cute Band Alert.  The guitarist was my favorite, and an absorbingly dark and hard instrumentalist as well.  The drummer was a huge bundle of energy, hitting hard and seeming like he couldn’t act dour or jaded or unamused if he tried, grinning at every fifth beat, unable to conceal his glee.  The organist was very subdued and seated at his keyboard yet his playing often slammed the overall sound to it’s hardest hitting point or even it’s moodiest and most atmospheric.  I found the band’s arrangements to be far more original and innovative live, and much less likely to be described as retro, which I have.  Overall, for one of those “next big thing” bands, they played a very musically adept and tight set.  They weren’t weak, save for that same flaw I find with their records–after awhile the songs sound a little to much like each other.  Just a little.  The vocalist very slowly introduced a song,  “This one’s called “I Changed My Hotel,”  it’s autobiographical and it is not open to interpretation.